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anyways, idunno, i had a crappy day yesterday, (i hate it when ppl give long confusing nonanswers to something thats yes or no) i really don't have much to say, except costumers are stupid, if we say we're closed, don't try to come in... moron and 7 rools of film CANNOT be done in one hour, get over it! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ k, sorry ppl, i had no idea how long i've let this go update, my bf (who btw has a total hold on me&doesn't know yet) is in london(ont) and i'm going down to see him in 4 days. luckily, he's coming back at the end of the month instead of at the end of the summer. at first, i was scared that i'd get over him (as i often do) but i think that's okay now. i understand how this may not make alot of sence, and i'm sorry, but it doesn't make alot of sence to me either. all i know is that i'm seeing him soon, finally got my train tickets, and will probably jump him when i see him at the station. and now i wonder if i should tell him i have a page. and yes, i realise that this day is devoted to him so deal, i haven't seen him in a month and i'm getting jumpy. wantwantwant . but anyways, other then the cd, he bought me another one and's giving me a stereo(and a good one at that) and offered to pay to get me to london for the weekend.... he could be my sugar daddy. my attempt to get to london has been a hard one, first i was going by plane, and getting there cheap. then it was train, back to plane, and train again... this was all in the past less-than-a-week... 3 days really.. so imagin the stress, then there was getting the weekend off(wow, working all weekend, who'd a thought?) but days are off, tickets are bought and in hand, and all is good... then my mom says, well, if you want to go by plane... NO MORE CHANGES!!! so i'm counting down the days.... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so anyways, bout that last one, my grandma died the day before my birthday so now i'm gonna chear it up a bit, i got a boyfriend, fairly new, and all is good. he's 19 so will soon be used for buying booze by my friends. i don't know what all to say about him, so i think i'm just not going to. but he's super sweet, he gave me his cd just cause i liked it (yeah, i'm confused)and he's pretty shy, but i think he's getting over that, and i'll stop here cause this WILL get annoying to whoever's reading this =) and i was aspose to go motercycle riding today with my dad, but the weather is crap, so now i'm alittle pissed. i've been looking forward to this for weeks! well, my funninesss for the day was when these 2 guys i met at the bus stop a month and a half ago, called, never showed, decided to call me and invite me to their party..... how desprate do you have to be to invite some chick you never met? nahnah! L-O-S-E-R-S!!!!! there's my (pathedic) vent ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ today, i'm not sure.... my grandma is dieing, really dieing... she's had cancer for almost 2 years, i guess, my sence of time is non-existant, so, i'm not too sure. but she had breast cancer, and got over that, got more cancer, and got worst, and worst, and now i'm being told she doesn't have much longer to go. but she's strong, and i can't watch strong people die. it scares me. it's just wrong. i felt this comming for a while, but it's still a shock, or just unreal... the way things aren't ment to be. i get scared at times like these, my grandpa died years ago from lung cancer( he was strong too), i never met his wife, she died in a car accedent before my parents ever met... so soon, there will be one.... but it seems that every person i know has died from NOT natural causes, never anything like old age of something. although i've been told i'll live a long life, i tend to not believe it, i'd rather me not loose them. much more comforting. so, here i sit, not haveing a clue what to do, i can't fix it, can't change anything, and can't do a thing but wait. so i stay scared, because this is never fair |
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